Searching For An Answer

Hello everyone, today is not a good day for me, I've been really quiet staying in my room alot, I feel like I'm in a big haze, and anyone that knows me I'm not quiet at all, I'm usually happy go lucky joe, always with a smile on my face pretty talkative and full of life, this is a really dark time for me and it's actually really scaring me, almost to a point where it's giving me the shakes, these last few weeks for me have been like living in hell without no way out, all I see in front of me is darkness and desperation, it's really hard going through this it's really painfull, I've never really been through something like this before, I'm always tired and unhappy, I stay in my house on my days off, this depression is something I hope no one ever has to go through, it's a big fight everyday just to get up and get dressed and do anything for that matter, it's a total nightmare, but sometimes life does throw you for a loop with many twists and turns, I just want to be my old self again, no more heartache or pain, I want my heart happy again, I want it to beat the colors of the world and not for it to bleed sorrow again. http://www.bonanzle.com/booths/CharlesSagona