Out Of Reach

Hello everyone, have you ever wanted something so badly that no matter what you do or how hard you try you never get it, whether it's a girl, a job, or maybe even the latest video game, I've been through that a few times in my life especially the last few years, with job's I tried to work with the school system, I signed up to work in the cafeteria maybe 2 years ago I got called for it went through the interview fingerprints and everything and have not got called for the job yet, but I'm still on the list, you can be on the list for 8 to ten years even, I'm still hopefull for it, then there is my romantic life, I don't have one, it seems so hard these days to find your "true love" is there even such a thing, I wonder if people just settle for someone these days, it's not that I'm picky or anything like that, I don't know maybe I need to be more confident as far as women go, or more out going, I think I have a really good personality, my other problem is that I'm also a shy person even at the age of 32, it's not as bad as it used to be but I still am and being this way isn't easy, it tends to hold you back from everything, I'm a big mess, I need help something needs to change in my life, I'm tired of being complacent, the sooner the things start to change the better. http://www.bonanzle.com/booths/CharlesSagona