I Hate Feeling This Way

Hello everyone, well it's finally friday everyone and it's another beautiful day in the neighboorhood, work was pretty busy today, alot of orders were flowing in, but that's the pastry business for you, I'm feeling really alone the last few days, it's just getting tougher and tougher, I hate feeling this way and sometimes it's good to be alone, but not like what I'm going through, I've been alone for too many years now, it's getting to a point where it's actually more than pathetic it's sad, but what are you going to do, I just feel so burnt out on it, I'm so tired so very tired, you can only try so hard you know and sometimes I'm like whatever and I pretty much stew in my own madness lol, but I was never that type of guy to go up to a girl and say hey baby, I would feel weird doing that and the girl would probably look at me like I have 10 heads or something lol, it's not really a fear of rejection it's my shyness that get's in the way and that can be pretty awful sometimes, and the fact that I'm overweight, those two things have held me back from many things In my life and I know I have missed out on alot because of it and it's my own fault, I'm certainly not going to blame my parents for my faults I mean come on I'm 32 years old now, they raised me the best way that they could and I love them for that. http://www.bonanzle.com/booths/CharlesSagona